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Rosemary, That’s For Remembrance

9 Dec

Another year is ending…if rosemary is abundant and cheap in this country, I would have thrown it all over.

Today I enjoyed a casual day of going for a facial and having lunch in town and shopping all by myself. I was under the assumption that he could join me for lunch but I was wrong. He decided to pop by Nylon to have coffee with his mum and belatedly told me (as if I could read minds!)

I like his mum. I do, really. We have a few similar interest and our silent moments are never awkward. Do note that I am always nervous around prospective mother-in-laws. But I do secretly hope that she likes me too.

Anyways, he then continued to say that they will be going back to the house to make desserts and I can come down if I want to (at this point he did not ask if my facial was good or if I had lunch or if I had anything on)

I had errands to run such as getting a secret santa gift under $20 at Sephora and feeling pretty annoyed at him for being so selfish. Since it was such a nice day, I walked all the way to sit down at this Japanese place that is well known for their matcha latte. He hates everything matcha and implied that I should go with friends instead. Its been almost 3 years so I ordered, had the cutest bento set and the matcha latte and read my book.

It feels good to take my own time to do things.
My favourite place has always been the Library – where you can always gain a little knowledge and quietness.

Another favourite place is the open sea – just you and nature.
Which reminds me, I should go diving again next year.

Merry Christmas in¬†advance everyone ūüôā



3 Sep

My last post was about the monotone-ness of my job. Fast forward 2 months and guess what? I’m starting my new job tomorrow. Excited? Yes. Nervous? Yes. Ready for change and challenge? Definitely.

It was more of a blessing in disguise. I was forced to search and never give up on hope even though it seems bleak and i was actually prepared to be unemployed for a month before I go into panic mode. But alhamdulilah, God answer to my prayers.

We just recently celebrated Hari Raya Aidiladha. There has been quite a fair bit of videos explaining Eidul Adha and Eidul Fitri ¬†– even info that I did not know about! It’s good that knowledge is shared around. I always take it for granted until someone ask me about it and I found it hard to explain. So never stop learning. That is very important.

I had two weeks to relax and while most people would straightaway book a flight overseas, I decided to chill and do things in my homeland. I didn’t feel the need to travel since I’ve recently just came back from Europe in May. I will eventually have leave in lieu this coming December – they wont bring it over so I will definitely bring my mom to Vietnam (since she hasn’t been there and I’m dying to be at Mui Ne). I didn’t get to do all the things in my list but I’ve managed to do some and that itself has been a great achievement.

Such as:

  • using the new stroller I got for my cat and stroll him to the clinic to get him vaccinated
  • went for facial and massage
  • attended friend’s weddings
  • surveyed furniture at IKEA
  • Climb @ ClimbCentral
  • Bought Melissa Sandals that I’ve been eyeing
  • Painted the guest room

Hopefully these last 4 months will be good to all of us.



The Last 10 Days;

18 Jun

I wished I could say that I didn’t blog as much because I was busy or I had something to do that was more important.

But its not. There wasn’t really much to say. As of last year on this day, I just started out my new workplace, new colleagues, new challenges, got my wisdom tooth out, started fasting and everything.

This year….all those familiar faces have gone, apparently I got so dehydrated I had fever, headache and back ache. I didn’t feel joyous. I feel bad for wanting this month to end because I wanted to eat during the daytime. But that’s my honest opinion. My job pays me good money but I don’t feel motivated, I don’t feel anything.

I’ve been to interviews but they were never the right fit. One even had a bar installed in the office. LOL. Does it happen when you’re 26 and you just feel lost? But you try to make it day-to-day, hoping something good will come out tomorrow?

All I wanted was a SME/MNC who could take me in and cherish me and watch me grow and learn. This year just feel so despondent. I feel despondent. He hasn’t gotten a job yet. I don’t know how many he has applied, why there hasn’t been any calls, I don’t want to blame myself but I do. It doesn’t seem like I can have my wedding in three years. The word for the year so far: Despondent.

At least part of my trip overseas was good (minus the travel buddy who does not appreciate the time and effort I fucking put in)

I just want June to be over and done with.


Travel Partner.

12 May

I chose the wrong travel partner.
I thought I did the right thing. But I was wrong.
So very fucking wrong.

I think after this trip, I won’t be going to any more birthday trips till I settle down.
I don’t think its worth to put so much effort in planning alone.
It’s really tiring and to not be appreciated? No ‘thank you for doing everything up, figuring out where to go, what to do, what to eat etc”
Like I put all these efforts creating excel sheet and whatnot and you can’t even comment or come up with your own ideas on how to get there?

Fuck la.
I’ll make the best out of it but I really miss the family that matters.
and my best friends.

I realise she may be my longest friend, but she’s no longer my best.

2017 = Staying Fit

3 Apr

Its the end of March & phew, its been a workout.

I signed up with KFit & loving every minute of it. It cost $129 per month ($99 the first month you sign up) and there’s no catch – just make sure you send an email 7 working days before the end of the month if you decide to stop. The downside? It limits you to 10 classes (but still cheaper than GuavaPass!)

Below are the classes/studio/gyms that I’ve been to so far. I’m trying to go to a new place every time so I can be more open to the different types of fitness out there.

  • Willow Stream Fitness and Wellness @ Fairmont Singapore
    Its a hotel gym. I went there when it was raining so I didn’t get to swim but I LOVE the up-to-date equipments at the gym as well as the steam/sauna room inside. Sadly, its only 1 session per month
  • Crosscore Training @ Radiance PhysioFit
    This uses something similar to TRX. The whole place looks big & I was under the impression that more people would show up for the class. WRONG. I was the only one. First time doing one-on-one training and I’m pretty sure James (the trainer) just waiting to see me give up. but I didn’t. He was super patient. I was sore for 3 days but damnnn….I feel the core muscles forming (didn’t had any before this)¬†
  • Dianamic Yoga @ Avante
    They name the yoga class after Diana (some instructor?) but she couldn’t make it so someone replace her and did hatha yoga instead. It was a mixed class but super intense. I had not gone to yoga for roughly 6months so it was a total stretch.¬†
  • Flow (Mixed) @ Yoga Collective
    Yoga Collective was co-founded by Sandra (a quarter of the Sam Willows). I was expecting more of Yoga Movement but was sorely disappointed. The admin person was also the yoga teacher so that was a bit weird. The place feels more like I went to someone’s house rather than a studio. The flow was alright – not the best but also not the worst that I’ve been to.¬†
  • HIIT Blast @ Herlifts Active Room
    LOVE THIS. Especially since its for women by women. It’s a small but self-sufficient studio. I’ve been to F45 as well as Ritual Gym (I will explain more below) so this felt familiar. 45mins workout and you really feel the burn afterwards. The only issue I have with this is the fact that they only have 1 toilet.¬†
  • Barre @ Wings to Wings Dance Development¬†
    This was my first barre class so I only had a rough idea on what to expect. The building is still under renovation so it took awhile to find it. Again, I was the only one there hence it became one-on-one again (I’m not complaining but its too much pressure sometimes and I can’t really cheat) It was a super upbeat class and the instructor is friendly. Would go again but not anytime soon.¬†
  • Cardio Kickboxing @ Impact MMA
    I thank god that I attended muay thai or I’d be totally lost in this class. For 45mins, it was totally worth it. Quite a fair bit of cardio as well as all those punching and kicking. Must bring own gloves unless you want to wear their moist ones.¬†
  • Piloxing @JR Fitness
    Its a small class so stay within your own area. No shower room and trust me, you’ll sweat. Kudos to the instructor that had LOADS of energy to scream and shout words of encouragement. Loads of movement, loads of moving arms up and down, flexing my buttcheeks and even did a quick cool down yoga poses.¬†
  • TRX Sculpt @ Herlifts Active Room
    Came here again and tried out their TRX Sculpt. It wasn’t easy since the main focus were the abs. Abit of weights here and there.¬†
  • Yoga Stretch @ Avante
    Came here again to try out their yoga stretch. I thought it was a good way to end the month with some gentle stretches to relieve those aching muscles.

Special Mentions

  • F45
    my colleague goes to this place and asked me to come along. The cardio classes are no joke. 45mins is all you need. There’s a lot of moving around and visuals to see how to do the exercise. The app is easy enough to use (:
  • Ritual Gym
    I’m going to be totally biased but I LOVE THIS. It’s a 30mins HIIT workout and the whole culture and atmosphere makes me feel at ease. I feel a difference after 2 weeks but its super expensive. Maybe if I earn a lot of money, I will definitely sign up with them. You don’t even need to bring anything because the workout clothes and towels are provided for. You don’t even need shoes! It’s 10 people per class with 2 instructors. The app is super easy to use.

Shape of you.

27 Mar

Take pictures of me.

When I’m not looking.
When I’m laughing.
When I’m enjoying my food.
When I talk about my passion.
When I’m sleeping.
When I feel the most vulnerable.

Don’t take pictures of me forcefully smiling.
Don’t take pictures of me angry and sad.
Don’t take pictures of me when my guard is up.

Fill your walls with me.
Cherish me like how I cherish you.

There were days where I feel we could not make it, when I feel like my life was heading to nowhere, when I was so near to ending it…I ask God to give me strength.

He showed me your kindness, your generosity, your virtues.
He reminded me that we’re all humans, that I am no better than the next person.

But I can be a better person for you. To work hard and be someone you deserve.
And if my heart can’t handle that, then at least I will be a better person for myself.

Tell me…

23 Feb

  1. Tell me a story of how people stay good and not how people leave
  2. Tell me a story of a beautiful world and not this ugly world
  3. Tell me a story of hope and not despair
  4. Tell me a story of how good people get good things and how bad people get bad things
  5. Tell me a story of justice
  6. Tell me a story of kindness and how it wins
  7. Tell me a story of how everything works out fine in the end
  8. Tell me a story of how there is happiness waiting for us
  9. Tell me a story of how all of this is just a bad dream
  10. Tell me a story of how a happy world exists
  11. Tell me a story with a happy ending
  12. Tell me a story of how I am going to see all my dreams come true and how happiness will find me

In a world where we see so many devastation and despair, we need stories brimming with hope Рwe need stories of a man willing to drive hours through a desert to bring water to animals during a drought. We need stories of women making food for those travelling harsh conditions to seek a better life. We need stories of a man willing to travel through war-torn countries to give toys to orphan kids.

Tell me that everything will be okay.